No Time to Grieve
So here's the worst AND the best part of the aftermath of your spouse walking out on you...IF, and only IF, you're a parent...
I wanted to die...literally. I fantasized about relieving myself from this unbearable pain by actually removing myself from life on this planet. Getting out of bed was a complete impossibility. Even forming real sentences took every ounce of strength I had left in me. But oh my God, WAIT, I am a MOTHER, I have a CHILD, what the fuck am I doing?
If it weren't for my Izzy, my everything, I honestly don't know if I would be here today. She was in extreme pain also. Wounded and suffering. She needed me like she had never needed me before. I had no choice but to step up. Level up. I think this was the single most difficult things I have ever had to do in my whole life. But....as much as I may have saved her, she saved me more.
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